3 too many wishes

 i wish to be a poet

i wish to be a known one

i wish to see the world

and i wish to denote it

i wish to feel the air

i wish to see its spheres

i wish to care and

i wish to see its colors

i wish to carry fear

and i wish for it to ground me

i wish for it to bound me 

i wish to be free 

and i wish to live it all

i wish to live with morals 

and i wish to be honoured 

to have lived at this age 

to have loved at this stage

i wish to be grateful and

i wish to be faithful 

i wish to be loyal 

and i wish to be joyous

as long as i am awake 

as long as my life is at stake.  

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