Unfolding Dubiety

 i wish to be a poet i wish to be a known one i wish to see the world and i wish to denote it i wish to feel the air i wish to see its spheres i wish to care and i wish to see its colors i wish to carry fear and i wish for it to ground me i wish for it to bound me  i wish to be free  and i wish to live it all i wish to live with morals  and i wish to be honoured  to have lived at this age  to have loved at this stage i wish to be grateful and i wish to be faithful  i wish to be loyal  and i wish to be joyous as long as i am awake  as long as my life is at stake.  

 I am at a very weird age. im at a very weird age of 18. i've tried almost everything ive wanted to try since i was young. im turning 19 next month. i've gotten drunk, ive gotten tipsy, i've done things in life, ive met a variety of people, ive met a variety of versions of myself. I've spoken to horrible people, I've spoken to lovely people. I've experienced freedom, ive experienced restriction within myself. ive acted out and ive stayed in. im not sure where im going with this. im just trying to imply that i have lived and i have loved. even though there's alot more for me to experience with life right now, especially in the romantic area, im still really glad and grateful that i got to experience the things that i have. i have loved friends i love family i have experienced music i have devoured silence i have been loud and quiet. All in all i am where im supposed to be. even though theres alot of academic and structural knowledge that im meant/yet to acqui...